The stuff that represents who you want to be

My Nanna is deft at crocheting.  I’ve tried to learn for over a decade.  I’ve tried.  I’ve tried again.  I bought books.  I asked Nanna to show me, I even filmed her crocheting in the hope I would get it.  But I failed to master even a simple Double Crochet. She says, with surprise,“I don’t understand why you can’t do it.  It’s really simple.”

I’ve held onto the learn to crochet book.  Year after year, I’d lament my failed efforts.  Year after year, I’ve hung onto hope I will one day learn to crochet.  All I ever wanted was to be able to craft an Afgan rug (sometime known as granny rugs).  I can’t be that hard… can it?

Late last year, I  finally realised that that book represents who I want to be.  I want to be a skilled crafter who whips up pretty rugs in an evening while watching The Two Ronnies.  That’s why I couldn’t let the book go.  It held a dream of the person I wanted to be.  Once I realised that, things changed.  I set about becoming that person.  I booked into crochet lessons.  Four lessons, with the promise of having the basics at the end – enough to be able to craft that frickin’ Afgan.  I hoped.

The short version of the story is that after the lessons, I still felt ill equipped and was no more skilled.  The book, the beautiful new red anodised hook and the super soft baby blue wool had to go.

And last night, I thought, I’ll just try once more…

…BINGO…. I got it.  It’s like riding a bike.

I can finally crochet!  I get it!  Well, DC at least 🙂

It’s like Dr Phil says: Today will be a changing day in your life!!

What are you holding onto with hope?  What do you own that holds a promise?  What have you conquered?


16 responses to “The stuff that represents who you want to be

  1. HurRAH!!! Welcome to the wonderful world of crochet. I hope you get many years of productive enjoyment from it 😀

  2. That’s so funny- I have recently been on a driving trip- 4 hours each way, and what comes with me? the hook, the yarn, the learn to crochet book. I am brilliant (Ha!) at chain stitch, but the next bit? Nah, I can’t get my head around it- what does- stick it in the 2nd hook from the chain (or whatever it says) mean- which way? I did all sorts of things and then get discouraged and go back to mastering my chain stitch! I have youtubed, I have had my mum teach me, and my friend- no avail. But you have given me hope- maybe one day it will just click! thanks for the inspiration (on more than one front- you should see how much stuff I have chucked out today!)

  3. Crocheting wasn’t something I could manage either, but I’ve loved knitting, cross stitch, patchwork, embossing, beading/jewellery making and sewing. I have loads of half finished projects, as well as tools, kits, fabrics, threads, stamps – as I don’t have time or space to work on these at the moment, they’re in storage bins under my bed (probably until retirement).

    I thought your point was perfect – the person I want to be has time to work on and finish all these projects. Sadly it’s a far cry from my current reality, but I’m hoping my future self can benefit.

    • girlworkaholic, can you carve out any time at all for these things? Even just an hour a week? What about cutting back on something else – say, less screen time (TV, computer)… I reckon you can find the time 🙂

  4. GREAT reminder! And although you hung on and achieved success, sometimes we have to let go of the book / craft / athletic equipment cuz it’s just not right for us (right, ever or right, right now).
    ps – take a photo with the item if the attempts have made you giggle – that way you perserve the giggle experience, just not the physical stuff ie. I have a photo of my ballet shoes, with me next to them with a big smile on my face but the shoes have since been discarded. yikes! have to accept I’m not a graceful dancer (at 6ft tall! 🙂

  5. Love that post. And it’s not just about the granny square – it relates to anything that we dream, buy and don’t accomplish. Very inspirational and we can all use the message here.

  6. I learnt to crochet as a child. I am a confessed wool hoarder ( I once told a pschotherapist speciallising in hoarding that I was helping to support the wool industry) It was perceived as an addiction.

    I have made dozens of quilts and millions of squares over the past forty years and have developed an interest in freeform which of course breaks all the rules.

    Some of us need a creative outlet and a form of self expression – I consider it contributes to my well being

    Purple Patch

  7. Pingback: Finally finished my tulip afgan « Write on the World·

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